Okay so here I am... back home after a week of travelling. In this week I fell ill... had a fever; a bad throat and weakness. Now despite this I was excited and nervous about the training program we were about to conduct.

It would be a real test of my capabilities of being able design a training program. Was so scared of the whole thing blowing up in my face.... The first day was quite a disaster according to me. Our lack of coordination was obvious ( maybe it was not that obvious to the participants, but to me it was). However it was from the second day that the workshop came alive. The efforts that the participants put in was amazing, they seemed to be enjoying almost every minute of the program.

I had put in a lot of activities and was scared that they may object to them saying that these activities were for children, but they took on the activities with high energy level and enthusiasm.

On the whole I am satisfied with the way things went. We were flexible enough to make changes as and when we required. That helped quite a bit.

The program requires a lot of work and fine tuning, and I am looking forward to making it better :D

utra utra mausam dhalke... palkon mein

katra katra pilun aa is pal ko... main

suraj ke kuch boondhe tapke hai peshane pe

sargoshi kudh se karti hu main hairani mein

yahi meri zindagi hai, zindagi hai zindagi, zindagi

One of my favorite songs from Dev D... I love almost all the songs of the movie. But, there is something about this song that appeals to me a lot. I think I relate the life I am living today with this song. Even as I write this post... I am listening to the song and it gives me goosebumps. It's an instant lift me up song. Am trying not to smile (coz am at work). But if it were up to me I would be singing loudly (bah... have a horrible cold and a really bad throat) i cudnt sing even if i wanted too.... sargoshi khud se karti hu main hairani mein, yahi meri zindagi hai, zindagi hai zindagi...

main mere.. pal mere din jaise ho

chand shab shakhe ek shajar pe khili

Ooo.. hai maine (sab sapne rang da le)

jee bharke (dil mein leke ujale)

khil khilake main tho ud chali

Ooo...

Kudrath muskurathi hai meri nadani pe

The second part of the song takes me back a few years... when I really felt like a free, wild spirit. Its another thing that those times brought me a lot of pain... but I think they shaped me into the person that I am today and this is for sure that today... as of this moment I don't regret any decision I have ever taken.... there are no what ifs for me :)

work and life...

I have always loved travelling… Despite being paid peanuts in my previous job I still loved going to work. One of the reasons being that I got to travel – a lot! So when I got married and moved to a new place without a job in hand, I was miserable. Needless to say I missed traveling (apart from the to n fro I did to Home – that does not count). So imagine when I get a new project with an organization in Delhi how excited I was. The first time I travelled I was excited, I was leaving the boring mundane life of being at home all day long.

In the last six months I have been to Delhi twice each trip being 10 to 15 days long. So when I was travelling for the tird time to delhi today, I was surprised that I dint want to go. I felt very reluctant and I think I have managed to make self sick (as in a bad throat and weakness) with anxiety and hesitation. And the reason for it... I hate leaving P at home. I hate not having him to hold at night when I sleep. Even as I write this I miss him like crazy.

I cant wait to get back home. Now don’t get me wrong, I am also glad I came. I love my work ad coming here makes me realize that I am doing what I had set out to do three years back and that too at my own terms J

But I still miss u honey L