Echos....

Guilty! Guilty! Guilty!

Everytime I look at myself in the mirror I feel like killing myself. Paid up a huge amount to do something very important and have let it go - was supposed to start by 2nd and its already the 5th and moreover it does not help that i just came back from "KFC" afetr gorging on grease and more cheese!!!

They say that its the in thing to have gym membership... does not matter if you are regular or not as long as you have that membership card - The exact words I told my dad while convincing him were, " Dad! I will go tothe gym everyday... afterall its my money at stake!!!" Feel like such an idiot now....

Anyways will try n go today!!! If not will definetly hit the gym tomorow

( I HOPE)

Choices...

Ever felt trapped in something you are not sure you want to stay in and at the same time unable to makeup your mind about getting out. I felt exactly that way about work. I dint know whether it was the right thing to do... I mean it was, ofcourse the right thing to do - after all thats what we do. We study really hard ( not that i did...) all our lives to get into the best college, do the right course, get into the best organisation and earn loads and loads of moolah. But what when you dont want to that??? I know there are loads n loads of courageous people who do exactly that!!! They dont care what the world thinks of them, how they are judged. They make their choices and live with them.

I decided to give up something I am not entirely sure, I should have given up. Putting a lot at stake here more importantly my independence and pride, all I know is that I am shit scared and have taken the first step and believe me I dont feel brave at all....