Chicken Salad...

The idea of this blog seems to be evolving very fast in my head. So... I plan to experiment... a lot!

The ultimate goal is to find a comfortable space where I get to express myself in as many possible ways. So today I thought of this... A recipe along with general musings....

I am trying to eat as healthy as possible.. but, there is no plan yet. At the moment, the meals are more like spur of the moment. I look into the fridge (read scavenge) and then based on what is available I make something or pretend to be unwell and make P cook something.Anyways, I hope to be organised enough one day to be able to plan a week's menu ahead and go grocery shopping accordingly.

So today's dinner was a simple salad, with absolutely no dressing, the chicken's juices were enough to coat the baby salad leaves mix with salty flavour. Just added a few sweet cherry tomatoes with raw walnuts and olives, and it was perfect.

I love the pic!

Into the night...

The week has passed and I feel like I need a break to get over this week. The last four days have been long, but they have been a lot of fun. Need a good night sleep and yet sleep eludes me.

I love this spot in my home, a lovely corner by the window and a plush recliner to relax on. As I relax thoughts flit about and writing comes naturally to me. I have a feeling... this space is going to have a great impact on my future memories.

As I sit tonight, noises from the apartment diagonally across our home come floating in. People are laughing and are having a good time I think. Makes me remember my friends. Is that a smile I feel on my face, yes... that's definitely a smile.

I want to say hey, to my friends, those who read or don't read my blog. Just know that I am thinking of all you guys. And you are so many! I am what I am today because a lot of you have impacted my life. In ways you may not even have imagined.

I am thankful... that I have all of you with me, beside me and more than anything else, I am thankful that you accept me for who I am...

Lots of love!

A green tea break

So... here I am, back to square one, trying to figure out life and where I intend to go from here. I don't say that the last two years were not worth it... in fact not at all. I have loved teaching, had a lot of fun! But more than the job giving me professional satisfaction, it gave me stability in my personal life. Our marriage had a shaky start especially because I was not working. It was the other end of the spectrum for me, moving away, new place and new people. Don't want to go into that because that's another story altogether. The job gave me a sense of being worth something. Knowing that, yes, people can hire me and I can contribute to an organisation and get paid well for it.

Being 30 and not knowing where life is headed is kind of scary. And I realise that it is very easy at this phase for me to get paralysed with fear. I have a lot of questions... Will I be able to contribute financially to our home? Will I be able to find something that I like? What if the next thing I take up also ends up being what I don't wan to do in life or something that I am not ready for yet? But the scariest question being what if I never figure out what I want to do in life?!?!?!

All pertinent questions and all of them are right there.... hanging.... nope suspended.... above my head, waiting to crash all over my head! I can see them even now.

But! (And thank God! for the but!) I refuse to get bogged down. I know why these questions are there... suspended.... above my head.... Its because that is what we have seen our parents do! Get a job, stick to that job and build a life for themselves. Sometimes they end up in love with their job and at times it remains that... a job.

I don't want that. I don't want to take that chance. 

This brings me to the second social conditioning... if you change so many jobs what will you end up as. And in my case its not just companies that I have changed... but with every company I have chosen a different profession... Jack of all trades and master of none. So where do you go...

No, I don't prescribe to the idea that I was meant to do one thing and one thing only! I want to try different things in life. There are so many avenues and I would like to take them all, may be not all... but as many as I possibly can. 

I want to write, cook good food, click beautiful pictures and travel the world... so many things that need to be done.

Perhaps this is what I should do... welcome the new lease in my life... I am excited, I want to see where I go from here... Where will I be a year from now! 

I am going to stop for life to happen to me, I need to make me happen to life!

The return...

Its been tooooooooooo long...

But it is time I take up writing again... Have to figure out what to do next and I think writing is the key!